i hope you like subtitles

maggiexmoo @ 2009-03-30T19:14:00

2009-03-31T00:25:13Z

alright so i guess that jim gaffigan show was just a new comedy special, so thats a bummer but it was funny still.

i thought i might share this:

my mom said it's ugly, but i love it.

maggiexmoo @ 2009-02-15T12:35:00

2009-02-15T18:43:59Z

happy birthday to me.
congrats self, you have lasted 21 years.

maggiexmoo @ 2008-07-13T10:27:00

2008-07-13T15:45:40Z

i hate working 7 days in a row.
please pray that by friday i will still be alive!
i need to have some drinkies.

maggiexmoo @ 2008-07-04T18:24:00

2008-07-04T23:41:51Z

in your face Britain, we won.

please be warm today

2008-05-21T15:07:25Z

today is looking promising. this is good, this makes me happy. i want it to feel like summerrrrrrr.

even thought i am not going to go back to the hobby lobby, i am going to try to get this job at michael's. i am returning the application today, and perhaps scoping out what other places are hiring.

i still have a good deal of unpacking and situating to do. but hopefully that i can do before saturday when i bring more things home. i usually like to rearrange my dealies. i just haven't gotten into the groove yet.
fuck stc. nah, just til it gets warmer.

tonight is the night, chitown, drinking for sure.

what will i wear today? ive been wearing tights for a few days but i think i am going to stick with them because it just isn't warm enough yet to not wear them.
or maybe bermudas.......hmmm this is a dilemma.

SHIT i gotta water my plants!! i completely forgot!
im gonna do that & eat a bagel with strawberry cream cheese, just in case you wanted to know.
i hope i'll have something extra exciting to post tomorrow!

p.s. dan's title at work isn't a junior designer, its straight up graphic designer!! i am so happy for him.
he is really excited, i am so glad. he's growing up D':

maggiexmoo @ 2008-05-19T19:48:00

2008-05-20T01:07:06Z

yesterday was tons of fun and maybe a bit weird but life throws you weird curve balls sometimes right?

i am in love with gossip girl, yummmmmm!

i did some much deserved shopping with ashley today, which was awesome but cold.

so hopefully tomorrow i can get everyone to come down to the city and play some beer pong or have some drinkies. god knows i NEED one! its been like three days and im fiending for some alcohol. thats bad right? whatevs, thats what summers about.

short & sweet. peace

excitement

2008-05-16T16:45:39Z

i'm coming home tomorrow.

i have to sit in this empty apartment all day by myself while i pack dishes.
no one is here anymore. libby's home, dan's in vegas, dave's in cali, and josh is at home too.
besides megan and mike. love em but i gotta save my energy to party when i come home.

i gotta pack up the rest of my clothes.
i gotta pack up the rest of my life.

i love dan. i already miss him. this summer is going to be trying.

celebrationnnnn

2008-05-15T15:42:12Z

okay so today is the final and last day of school. besides ecology class at 3:30pm today, I am pretty much done.
its exciting to have completed two years of college. i am HALF WAY through! thats sooo weird to think about.
so my teacher couldn't bind our books before class which fucked us over really bad. so we had to go to kinko's and pay a shit ton of cash to get our books bound. which by the way takes 4 HOURS. so so laaaaaame. but at least this way i don't have to show everyone my book haha. this kid in my class did this awesome "memory" book/album of his last summer to get him excited about this summer so i totally want to do something like that after this summer is over. i really wanna try making more books, i think its kinda neat but i just want to be able to do it on my own time for my own reasons.

this summer will be too fun, i hope.

i have to call the pops today and see when he can pick me up. he has to pick me up cause i can't leave all my clothes in the apartment haha.

shit i gotta listen, we're about to take our final...
one thing im dreading is UNpacking! i hate my room at home, its so small. waaaaah. i swore to myself id make it cooler this summer, like repainting it and shit.

maggiexmoo @ 2008-05-14T11:18:00

2008-05-14T16:36:52Z

scattered scattered scattered!

too many things to do today!! someone save me.
i have to go to the graphics lab print out my entire book mount it and then figure out HOW i am going to bind it!

rush rush rush, get it done, get it done.
i have to do my stupid skit today. wah wah.

i havent showered, i havent even started my take home ecology test which is due tomorrow, yikes!

only two more days, only two more days.

let's start drinking now

2008-05-12T21:47:45Z

okay so quick wrap-up time:

i took my beginning type final test this morning and i have my book done for that class & design lab. just need to take the design lab final test thursday morning.
tonight i am working on my take home test for history of communication design, i am almost half way done.
tomorrow i have to arrange my skit for wednesday. hopefully my partner doesn't stand me up AGAIN! so laaaaame.

i haven't figured out what day i am coming home, probably saturday. maybe friday? i have to pack up my dishes after classes get done this week since cause i won't have time to come back here just to pack them. megan is having us over on thursday which will be fun but dan will already be in vegas, lucky bastard. but his sister is graduating from unlv, which is sweet. i can't wait to see everyone at home. ive got to call peter, that schmoe.

i need to go shopping for summer clothing items!
its the final stretch, SO close to summer break!! i can almost taste it.

i love cookies :(

hmm...

2008-05-10T19:05:46Z

you know how you get sentimental when you listen to certain bands/songs/etc?

i just want to live free. i just want to love and be loved. i want to be a good person. does anyone know how to be a good person or are good people just good and bad people are bad? are we all in between?

i have so many dreams. i am always dreaming of something other than reality.
i want to be successful.
i want to keep secrets.
i want to say "i love you".
i want him to buy me flowers.
i want to be healthy.
i want a family.
i want to stop being scared.
i want to trust you.
i want a best friend.
i want genuine happiness.
i want inside jokes.
i want a dog.
i want a rabbit.
i want cup holders.
i want to know what people think of me.
i want to go back in time.
i want them all to still be alive.
i want you all to be happy.
i want their baby to be safe.
i want to fly.
i want to have a better memory.
i want to forget.
i want to forgive.

thats a long list, i guess. i'm hot and tired and my head/stomach hurts. i have to stop drinking so much. my brain is mushy. i want to be able to communicate my thoughts and ideas clearly. i havent been able to do that, ever.

i'm addicted to caffeine.
the city looks so pretty now.

ohaiyoogozaimaaaasuuu

2008-05-08T14:32:54Z

i'm tweakin'. i finally thought of a project for my 16 page book for design lab/beginning type. of course what i started last night i forgot to put on my flash drive and bring to class. duuuuuuh. i was talking to dave lebrun on aim so i wasn't really paying attention too closely. come on maggie! step it up.

i used to have this plain black hoodie from h&m with a slight v-neck and i think i gave it away to goodwill or something and i really want it back now. damn. i think i can see dan across the graphics lab haha. definitely, he has got his goofy walkmen velcroed to his belt buckle. we just waved like d's, haha. he has class on this floor too but we aren't in the same class. the printers are across the room from where i am (in the very back corner of the lab). i like awkwardly seeing him like that, i feel like its high school again and you don't know what you should do, should you go up and talk or should you kiss in front of all these kids? good stuff.

anywho, i am getting sick in InDesign...bleck.

ouchouchouchouch. i hate THAT time. okay no i really don't cause i'm always glad when it comes.

i'm really excited for this book dealy. i can see everyones computer in class and no one is paying attention, its pretty funny. i'm bored out of my mind in class today. waaaah. one ONE WEEK LEFT!!! thank the sweet lord. i can't take much more school. libby and i did some maajor packing last night. our living room is filled with boxes, which we are slowly running out of. you end up with more shit than what you came with. i hate packing dishes bleck. i can't even remember what dishes are mine now.

i need to do some retail therapy, a.s.a.p.

maggiexmoo @ 2008-05-06T17:14:00

2008-05-06T23:19:45Z

here are those other pics from the ones i posted before. now i can't remember who took these:

sometimes i am real ashamed of who i used to be. i was always confused on who i was so i was never really myself. i made a lot of stupid decisions about everything. but what teenager doesn't have an identity crisis? oh well. a lot of the stuff that happened created new opportunities for the future. sometimes i ask myself what could have been...

but those kinds of things are better left alone or in the past.
they are burying my grandmother on mother's day. my mom has been understandably distraught but sometimes i feel like i don't have a mother. she's distant...

i need new glasses. and i want to get my nose pierced.

tamarind tonight, yesssssss. i have had a big craving for pad thai! this post has taken me like two hours to write haha. i just kept walking away, i kinda like it cause i think of other things i wanted to say. one thing

i am glad about going home is that there won't be so many sirens.

megan and i are having a slumber party friday so she can get out of going to the loose sips sink ships show haha. so we're going to drink vodka, eat ice cream, watch girlie movies, and talk about boys. i asked her opinion on that matter i couldn't confront...she agreed with me. what do i do? he's on the inside. i feel its so obvious. mikey noticed he was all up ons me too. weeeiiirrrdddd. also about our extremely similar pasts. we were both part of a controlling clique of girls in middle school and part of high school. not that i have anything against sarah or brooke anymore, but it is frustrating when people STILL ask if i see them, or other old friends of mine. it gets old. if you haven't seen them, i doubt i have, dduuuuuuhhhhh.

stay classy, chicago.

hot air

2008-05-05T15:34:49Z

okay so i'm sitting here going crazy in beginning type. what a great class, its a good thing to know how to use InDesign. i am joking just a little bit. its so fucking early aaahhhhh.
okay so today our new windows are FINALLY done! i have been living with dan for the past week. they postponed the installation (for which they kick us out of our apartment) from thursday to today! its been tons of fun all week. thats a little bit of an exageration. so tonight i get to finish my HUUUUUGE important History of Communication Design paper for the pyscho, old, alcoholic, know-it-all, shortass teacher who drives us all up a wall. man i am tired. i drank a lot this weekend which is always a great idea right before the second to last week of school. bleeehhhhh
the kids at columbia are either really cool or complete douchebags. but everyone influences everyone else, in every way, shape & form. everyone is always changing.

okay so i was going to bitch about all the shit i have to do but i am sick of hearing me bitch! i just gotta suck it up and do what needs to be done.
i think this summer i am going to bring my camera like everywhere cause i need tons of stock photos for my designs. cause ill be overloaded with design projects junior & senior year and google sucks and you aren't supposed to use it anyway.

did i mention like everyone who came to the city this year is transfering?! libby is going to niu, olivia is going to u of i, and katrina might go to madison. damn all my girls will be far away. i guess the city really is a big environment change and some people hate it. i love it. but at least megan & mikey will be here, along with dan and his pals even though dan & dave are graduating next year (yikes). i dont even wanna think about that yet!

okay so this summer might be cooler than i thought. i am gonna put myself out there. take some risks.

maggiexmoo @ 2008-05-03T11:07:00

2008-05-03T16:29:41Z

you can change your life in one second. turn yourself around. spin in a complete circle, for better or worse.

megan had us over again last night, oh man it was so fun. i love her i don't care that everyone else hates her shes legit. she is completely genuine and not full of shit like every other girl. but anywho, Cole came over too and it was so nice to see him. we reminisced about gym class and 7th hour lunch when we were juniors. and wee wee throwing out our garbage, haha. good times.

i think i found an apartment building to live in next year! i am so pumped.

i wish i had my box of apple jacks right now :(

maggiexmoo @ 2008-04-30T09:28:00

2008-04-30T15:07:38Z

now i am thinking of more and more tattoo ideas :)

okay so i am totally obsessed with keeping up with the kardashians. it really makes me want to have sisters. just automatic bff's, even though you fight it'd be someone who is always there for you. not a girl who'll steal your boyfriend, or have ulterior motives when becoming friends with you, or any of that petty bullshit girls do.

i totally want to be a little girlier. does that make sense? like cute tops and outfits. not all the time just like do it up every once in a while. maybe some cute boots, a fancy top. what girl doesn't wanna get all dressed up sometimes? i do have a nice collection of cute heels. i might go back to one solid hair color too, or regular highlights, uggghh i can never decide what i wanna do haha. ill end up doing all of them eventually. im getting tired of long hair but i am NOT going to cut it.

so i think my brother and i are on better terms now since he came down and we went out to dinner. he got really drunk at my birthday party and i took care of him ALL night and he puked all over the place so i spent all night in my room with him and he made a fool of himself in front of everyone i know. it was a disaster. i mean i love him so i forgave him instantly but if he needs help i hope he gets it and when he moves out of our parents house he doesnt drink too much and have something bad happen to him.

ive got a bunch of finals shit to do. i have to make a book for design lab & beginning type.
i have a HUGE paper due for history of communication design
i have an oral test in japanese, yikes
and a project, lab report, and test for ecology. man i hate the end of the year!

i have to start looking for apartments.

maggiexmoo @ 2008-04-29T12:12:00

2008-04-29T17:41:27Z

okay so i have a few solid tattoo ideas. i really want to get one to rep. chi-town love. so i figured i'd take chicago in katakana with vibrant neon colors on my wrist. that one i'm almost sure i'll get. the second is one for my grandma, which i wanted to get the wings on the ankles like hermes, which i also am almost positive i'll get. so maybe a banner or something to put her name in. i just don't want it to be cheesy. then today i was thinking maybe for nicole's i'll do the two waves of the aquarius symbol with helvetica NA overlapping it. its simple and i really am stoked about it. i also really want to get my nose pierced. the nose will probably come first.

okay SO SO much to do. today i have to start packing up a lot of my shit. because those stupid window guys are coming any day now. i gotta do laundry, and we have to go to the store. we are trying real hard to get rid of all the leftover food still lingering. we have a butt ton of pasta. anywho...

i've got a huge list of summer projects i want to start when i get back to stc. oh stc, i hope it doesn't let me down like it did last summer. it is going to be a lot different this summer, no christian, no derek, everyone has got their little clique that all hang out in one place for 6 months until they get tired of each other. but there isn't wrong with that, ive been there. i don't want to hang out with the same people everyday, but i most def don't wanna be bored. we are all stoked for camping this summer, we've already been planning! its going to be a nice big group this time. i have to go outside more this summer cause i need to work on my tan.

i also have to call hobby lobby and see if i still have a job.

i'm gonna do some online shopping at american apparel. i bought my favorite pair of shorts there but they shrunk real bad. so much to do little time.

forget the dramz, lets move on.

maggiexmoo @ 2008-04-27T15:33:00

2008-04-27T21:12:53Z

...and it hurts that he's still shaking from those secrets that were told...

last night was a ton of fun. celebrating the birth of josh & libby. i just got waaaaay too wasted. but that isn't something i want to think about.
my plan to resolve anything went down the tubes. i tried but i got the feeling i should just let it go. which is going to be hard, but i just gotta.
dan told me something that scares me. i don't think anyone should throw their life away. especially not at a time like this. it upset me. i don't know what to do. it can't be repeated.

so i made a fool of myself, took some really good polaroids, but took some really bad regular pics. man i gotta start working out again.
mysterious bruises. and thoughts that shouldn't have been spoken, oops. i'm not a bad person, i just wanted him to know.

i am having one of those days were ive got so much id like to say but the thoughts won't come out. my mind is jam packed with thoughts and words right now. maybe later ill be able to spill some out.

distance

2008-04-24T17:39:12Z

so i was digging through old photos for marissa and I forgot about these. These are some of the oldest ones I've got. The night before the first day of junior year. so old, look at that blonde moo.

anywho, ive been having thoughts i shouldn't for a while and its confusing me more and more because i love him.
i don't know, i guess everyone has doubts sometimes, but i feel wrong. especially if he stays in the city this summer, id go insane. with his internship i am already going to be losing so much time with him, if we don't live close to each other ill never see him. i am willing endure, i just don't know if he is. plus i feel more and more like ive been doing something wrong. maybe i am way more obvious than id like to think? i think this weekend its going to be make or break, i can't stand feeling this way anymore.

so i am not really excited to go back home and live at home. its just tasting freedom, its like having to go back to prison. and especially since my drinking ticket last summer my parents aren't going to trust me to stay out or go to parties. not that they should though, ive made my fair shares of driving while..whatever mistakes.

man i just need a stiff drink and ill be good. thats the general consensus these days, a drink to solve all my problems. i got more done that way.

well the animals laugh from the dark of the wilderness...

2008-04-22T05:29:42Z

remember this libby fansler? i thought so.

so i was thinking that maybe each post i would indulge everyone with a photo or image, some of which will be my creation. i doubt i'll stick with it but i can try.
i picked up a new read, brave new world. ive been wanting to read that for a long time. whoo-hoo.
so i'm a hypochondriac. i'm afraid of sleep, so if i don't wake up remember i told you so.

my head is killin' me but what isn't killin' me? schools a bust, lifes seeming to take a turn for the worst. or just complicating matters more. i am at an impass, instead of living in the past i've been overthinking the future. i just love having something to look forward to, ya know? maybe i can find inspiration in doubt & drought.

i got an idea log, i think that should help.
isn't it funny how sometimes other people know you better than you know yourself? its not funny, its just we are all predictable and complicated at the same time.

i always wish for people to stop wasting talent.

make it or break it

2008-04-15T23:47:42Z

so the next month is going to be CRAZY.

tons of homework to do and then finals oh my oh my. saturday is ashley's baby shower and i'm super excited! i also am getting a much a needed haircut before hand, which is going to be very refreshing. plus hanging out with ashley and the guys will be a nice change of pace. i wish i saw more of beefe and bean and t and sean! beefe poured out his heart and said he wanted to be better friends because we have known each other for almost 6 years. it was sweet. plus i miss innocent, fun times with those guys. anywho, i have NO idea what i am going to to do about my living situation next year. probably going to live by myself, plus move up north. also my family isn't going to my cousins wedding, which pisses me off really bad. but anywho, the weekend after this coming weekend is libby & josh's combo. birthday party!! i am so excited, the guys are having it at their place and its gonna be a blast & a half. libby & i got ashley's baby shower gifts today, soooo adorable and extremely cheesy haha. but its an interesting slice of common social...whatever you would call it. so then we have two weeks left after that 'til summer vacation! so i completely forgot to register for my classes for next semester until yesterday even though i was supposed to register 5 days ago. so i have 3 design classes, photo & darkroom. i have no gen. eds! its going to be sooooooooooooooooo intense, i am really dreading it. well anywho, lots of stuff coming up to look forward too and i am super pumped.

quick thoughts

2008-04-02T17:25:09Z

okay so there are a few images that make me feel happy about my vacation (green grass under my sandal wearing feet!) i am like still in break mode because i don't want to work on any homework. but we are getting excited over here for Libby's 19th birthday!! its gonna be sooooo fun. i think we are having it at the boys apartment cause Josh is turning 21 and their bdays are only 5 days apart. but poor dave will already be gone! i already know what i am going to get libby for her birthday, a book of aubrey beardsley's work, and a totally libby style skirt. i cant wait!

so i have a non-sexual female crush on Rihanna. i mean she has fantastic style and voice and shes dating Chris Brown, who i have a not-so-non-sexual crush on.

i hope it starts to act like spring real soon and heavy coats wont be needed anymore. well shit i gotta go to class soon, peace!

maggiexmoo @ 2008-03-27T15:53:00

2008-03-27T21:48:56Z

wow. long long thoughts. if that is possible. i just woke up from a bad nap, like they always are with me because i wake up feeling nauseous and more tired than i felt before. okay so back to the long long thoughts.

so i flew to florida for the first time in ten years this week. everything i remembered about flying and florida was different. i was nervous to fly and while in flight which i don't ever recall being like before. but the sky was beautiful and the clouds like wispy kingdoms. i had a lot of words built up to describe what i saw but it all seems irrelevant now that i am not looking right at it. anywho, so i had to make two stops before ft.lauderdale because southwest is a tiny bitch nipple. in nashville and jacksonville. but we got stuck in jacksonville for two hours and i felt like i was sitting in a metal box on fire. well anyway i finally got in two hours late yadda yadda. i lost most of a day i could have spent there. but all in all i had a good time.

the first day i enjoyed a bit of sunning myself. sooo relaxing, yet i forgot how potent the sun is there, more so than it is in wisconsin in the summer. lame, so guess what? tomato. then my grandpa took me to the swap shop the next day and spent way to much money on me. at least it was nice to be taken care of, but it ended up feeling like i took advantage of an 82 year old man. i really just loved seeing my grandparents and eating with them and my family. then i went onto a gambling boat with my cousin, my aunt, my cousins boyfriend, his mom and sister. it was an awkward group but we had a really good time. id never gambled before so i played the slots. i broke even eventually, but my cousin won 200 dollars. so awesome.

this morning was a time indeed. i woke up at 4am to drive to the airport for my 6:30am flight. two stops on that flight to, whorlando then louisville. and usually i can take screaming babies pretty well because the ipod blocks out noises. but you gotta turn off electronics like 40 minutes before you land. lame. well of course a baby was screaming during the whole duration of the "decent". and it was one of those annoying wet screams like the baby is gargling salt water. so much so that sometimes its like its gargling not even screaming. but its disgusting. mmmm sick babies.

man i am so tired and i only have a weekend to do all of my homework for this break, which happens to be a shit ton. peace.

p.s. when i upload my pics from fl. ill post some here for viewing pleasure.

maggiexmoo @ 2008-02-22T16:04:00

2008-02-22T22:25:16Z

so i've got this routine, and who doesn't? and who isn't shaken up when their routine is disrupted. i've got this inspiration lull, well no that is not right. i am always inspired, but its like it never transfers onto paper, or the computer or whatever. i love learning new things all the time, but sometimes i am frustrated by the lack of faith in my "yet-to-come" abilities, if that makes any sense? even though i feel like now i am one big step closer to some of my biggest life goals. which is of course graduating and doing what i love for the rest of my life, but still being able to keep my head above water. my birthday was a complete disaster, but it changed dan & i's relationship, for the better. its your obnoxious, embarassing, depressed family that can bring people together right? well whatever, the past is in the past. lets KEEP it there. lets look to the future. i can't wait for summer. its a long way away everyone says but it doesn't ever seem like that.

i am just in love with life, and amazing graphic artists and illustrators, fashion, food, family, love, ghosts, baking, everything. i am starting to like the snow, only because it reminds me of her. it feels like she does it just for me, a security blanket.

maggiexmoo @ 2008-01-20T17:34:00

2008-01-20T23:56:14Z

there is so much going on right now. up until now i thought i could face life, since i never really had to before. but more and more i am learning how human everyone really is.

we lost my grandma yesterday. i just can't uphold the same attitude about death that i have before. i mean i loved the friends i lost before, don't get me wrong. but this hits a completely different spot. it was my uncle's birthday yesterday too. all her kids were there for her. my mom thinks she knew that since they were all there it was time to go. my brother is having a hard time, everyone is so skattered. i haven't hardly seen my mother this whole break. i feel completely lost. i've never had a hold on my faith, i can't decide if this will make me believe or doubt life after death even more. how could this be the end? but why should we deserve something more? i can't decide. i just miss her. i don't what i'll do when i lose my mother.

its supposed to be a big week at work for everyone, and i hated having to tell my boss what happened and how i have to leave for the funeral, and his only response was, okay well i hope it isn't friday. i can't believe the lack of compassion in some people. this is going to be hard for me. very very hard. i don't know what to do anymore. what should i do?

please pray for her.